Tonight, his voice is in my head, telling me I’m not fit for anyone if I’m not taking my pills.
But I just don’t think that’s true.
Yes the detox was tough and yes I went a little crazy… But I’m on the other side of it now and everything just feels kinda good you know? I’m sure I’m just as lovable even if I’m not medicated. Better even. Because now I’m me in my entirety, spontaneous and sexual and passionate and creative and caring. And I love all those things about myself, so even though there will be days I’m paranoid or days when I’m angry or just generally “too much”… surely that’s ok. Surely the gain outweighs the loss and surely he was just wrong.
Or just weak.
Unlike me, who’s not afraid of anything, except irrational paranoias and opening doors with one hand instead of two :p.